Today is Marti grais aka Fat Tuesday aka the day before Lent. Since my New Years resolution to “decrease sugar intake” aka cut out sugar completely, I’ve learned a few things. One, it’s actually better to decrease your sugar intake, not cut it out completely. I don’t want to go crazy again. What should be happening is life in moderation. I’ve eaten desserts a few times and guess what? I didn’t gain 10 pounds, I didn’t die. I did go to get ice cream today by myself, but it was giving me so much anxiety standing there that I got a sample and left to munch on some dark choco almonds. Therefore, my Lenten resolution is to really live “life in moderation.” Less mindless snacking, stress eating, running to the fridge when I get home, eating a second breakfast- more food prep and enjoying meals. I can have sugar-in moderation. Also I want to find at least one thing beautiful in every day, whether that’s in me, someone else, or the world around me, and then write it down. I’m not sure about this one but I’ve been toying with the idea of putting change into a jar like for operation rice bowl or something every time I want to eat and am not hungry, because a lot of people don’t have that option. So here’s to a positive, moderate 40 days! (Though I might eat that nerds rope tonight..)
Bad, bad decisions… Worst day yet. This will be rock bottom. Now time to get serious.